Charlena
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Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Monday, August 23, 2010
WOW
Some beautiful thoughts in life worth noting..
Nothing truly worthy is ever a granted
Never say never
Never seek what you do not truly want to find
To thine self be true...everything else is natures choice
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
I'm always getting requests to get to know me better...Here ya go.
I have needed to create a centralized point of reference to refer people who ask me to “tell them a little about myself” and this seems like a great place for that so here goes.
I raised myself and my little sister due to “absent” parents. I grew up very quickly, I made horrific rebellious choices trying to survive being a self made kid and I created a world of wreckage in doing so.
It wasn’t till I was over 30 years old, having had used every drug imaginable, having had used massive sexual encounters and an unthinkable amount of men/children/relationships to try and fill my gaping void, that I finally had a awakening that would change every bit of my life and the way I lived from that point on.
I was homeless, digging out of trash to survive on a daily basis, a bicycle for transportation, no book education to speak of, and pretty dam tired of busting up my body by the amount of hard core work, the dangers of breaking down and cleaning the scrap I picked up and hauled daily (on that bike no less!), the living out in sometimes very difficult weather with no place to go, and the lonely and desperate feeling every single day that went by getting worse as time went on.
So my (what I perceived as the smartest man alive at the time) boyfriend was working on a computer one day. He was homeless and drug addicted too only he had a lil less of a tragic hardship childhood than I and he at least got to go to school and learn something cool like computer technology.
One day I asked him a question about whatever it was he was doing at the time, and his response I hold single handedly responsible for sparking that match which lit the inferno under my ass that I hold so dear today.
He said.. ”awww why the fuck should I waste my time telling you? You wouldn’t understand anyways!”
That pissed me off so god dam bad I HAD to do whatever it took to prove his smart ass wrong.
I began my search. I remembered seeing ads in the penny-saver that said something about places where anyone who wanted to get an education and a degree in whatever field they wanted. I figured Id never qualify in that group of “anyone” because so far in my life the only thing I ever qualified for was state aid and food bank handouts but I had to at least check into it and try to see if I could get it.
Well come to find out I was over qualified for funding and that yes it was possible for me to get into a certified computer technician course AND get money for the transportation to get there everyday and lunch to boot!
To make a long story short…His ass and the rest of the career degenerates in my life watched a remarkable transformation from a once apathetic hopeless loser to a very dedicated, goal oriented, and serious productive member of a society that most of us only dreamed about.
After graduation I started working for the school that I had been attending.
Started as an office assistant, was promoted to 3 different positions before ending up as a corporate trainer. Then after I created a big time successful new department within all six campuses that brought them in LOTS of profit, I was let go for lack of work. This…after giving them dam near 6 hours EXTRA a day UNPAID to help develop this department, was a blow that just sent my ass into a state of mind that would eventually take me right back to square 1.
This was in Feb 2001.
(More on what happened after this later, now onto what I am doing today.)
Today my days consist of (in this order)
1. Making money to survive with out having to depend on anyone else AND not have to clock in to some 9-5 corporate drone lame jobs.
This has its ups and downs. Lately it’s been on a consistent downward roll.
Ever since 2001 when I was laid off from a job with the title of "corporate trainer" making 35/40 bucks an hour because of "corporate politics" I decided that working for Joe blow was never going to cut it for me and that I was going to have to find an idea for starting my own empire and have been ears deep in finding out what that is going to be.
Since then, I have done lots of things to stay alive and stay indoors. J Some of them were things I had already mastered before going to tech school and some of them have been real blessings in my life to have had experienced that have given me more insight into myself than any other source ever. They say things happen for a reason…I say yep.
2. Researching, learning, creative networking, marketing, pretty much anything that comes about that leads to being able to do #1 a whole lot more efficiently with less work and time involved.
So being this the case my time is FILLED with more time needed everyday.
I don’t do “fun” things or any kind of “social networking” that isn’t directly involved with my work and how I can make my progress to my goals.
The one upside to this is that I do have one form of earning a living that is in its self a great way to make decent money, have fun, enjoy the company of like minded people, and scratch any and all sexual health needs all wrapped up in one awesome gig. I am a ProDomme and I offer sensual Domination sessions and I LOVE doing this. It not only brings in money but It has put me in touch with a part of me that I had not really ever knew exsisted.
I am a naturally Dominant female. I had to be growing up so quickly with no one giving me any guidance, I called the shots and having had made it through some of the things I have I have no choice but to trust my instincts after all they did kept me above ground. And the experiences of course leaving me pretty independent and stubborn.
So, what I’m hoping to relay in this lil bio of mine are some clues into how (granted that is if any one of you REALLY means what you say and would like to get to know me better, hang out, whatever) you might win my attention and sweep me away J
Here are some clues…
I am spinning my tails trying to build an empire.
I do not stop this process for anything that does not compliment my goals.
I can not relate to drones. I have a thirst for more, and the smarts and drive to make it happen. All I am lacking is a like minded partner who I can exchange energy with, bounce ideas off of, and hopefully see out this vision with hard work, dedication and determination.
Can you say “retiring and taking long adult vacations someday”?
So, there you have it. Like it, hate it, fear it, judge it, I couldn’t give a fuck any less about what you do with it. But one thing you can bet on…it’s 100% true, and no shame in my world. Every bit of who I am today stems from every bit of ugly I have endured and I love every bit of who I am today so it was all well worth the hell.
I raised myself and my little sister due to “absent” parents. I grew up very quickly, I made horrific rebellious choices trying to survive being a self made kid and I created a world of wreckage in doing so.
It wasn’t till I was over 30 years old, having had used every drug imaginable, having had used massive sexual encounters and an unthinkable amount of men/children/relationships to try and fill my gaping void, that I finally had a awakening that would change every bit of my life and the way I lived from that point on.
I was homeless, digging out of trash to survive on a daily basis, a bicycle for transportation, no book education to speak of, and pretty dam tired of busting up my body by the amount of hard core work, the dangers of breaking down and cleaning the scrap I picked up and hauled daily (on that bike no less!), the living out in sometimes very difficult weather with no place to go, and the lonely and desperate feeling every single day that went by getting worse as time went on.
So my (what I perceived as the smartest man alive at the time) boyfriend was working on a computer one day. He was homeless and drug addicted too only he had a lil less of a tragic hardship childhood than I and he at least got to go to school and learn something cool like computer technology.
One day I asked him a question about whatever it was he was doing at the time, and his response I hold single handedly responsible for sparking that match which lit the inferno under my ass that I hold so dear today.
He said.. ”awww why the fuck should I waste my time telling you? You wouldn’t understand anyways!”
That pissed me off so god dam bad I HAD to do whatever it took to prove his smart ass wrong.
I began my search. I remembered seeing ads in the penny-saver that said something about places where anyone who wanted to get an education and a degree in whatever field they wanted. I figured Id never qualify in that group of “anyone” because so far in my life the only thing I ever qualified for was state aid and food bank handouts but I had to at least check into it and try to see if I could get it.
Well come to find out I was over qualified for funding and that yes it was possible for me to get into a certified computer technician course AND get money for the transportation to get there everyday and lunch to boot!
To make a long story short…His ass and the rest of the career degenerates in my life watched a remarkable transformation from a once apathetic hopeless loser to a very dedicated, goal oriented, and serious productive member of a society that most of us only dreamed about.
After graduation I started working for the school that I had been attending.
Started as an office assistant, was promoted to 3 different positions before ending up as a corporate trainer. Then after I created a big time successful new department within all six campuses that brought them in LOTS of profit, I was let go for lack of work. This…after giving them dam near 6 hours EXTRA a day UNPAID to help develop this department, was a blow that just sent my ass into a state of mind that would eventually take me right back to square 1.
This was in Feb 2001.
(More on what happened after this later, now onto what I am doing today.)
Today my days consist of (in this order)
1. Making money to survive with out having to depend on anyone else AND not have to clock in to some 9-5 corporate drone lame jobs.
This has its ups and downs. Lately it’s been on a consistent downward roll.
Ever since 2001 when I was laid off from a job with the title of "corporate trainer" making 35/40 bucks an hour because of "corporate politics" I decided that working for Joe blow was never going to cut it for me and that I was going to have to find an idea for starting my own empire and have been ears deep in finding out what that is going to be.
Since then, I have done lots of things to stay alive and stay indoors. J Some of them were things I had already mastered before going to tech school and some of them have been real blessings in my life to have had experienced that have given me more insight into myself than any other source ever. They say things happen for a reason…I say yep.
2. Researching, learning, creative networking, marketing, pretty much anything that comes about that leads to being able to do #1 a whole lot more efficiently with less work and time involved.
So being this the case my time is FILLED with more time needed everyday.
I don’t do “fun” things or any kind of “social networking” that isn’t directly involved with my work and how I can make my progress to my goals.
The one upside to this is that I do have one form of earning a living that is in its self a great way to make decent money, have fun, enjoy the company of like minded people, and scratch any and all sexual health needs all wrapped up in one awesome gig. I am a ProDomme and I offer sensual Domination sessions and I LOVE doing this. It not only brings in money but It has put me in touch with a part of me that I had not really ever knew exsisted.
I am a naturally Dominant female. I had to be growing up so quickly with no one giving me any guidance, I called the shots and having had made it through some of the things I have I have no choice but to trust my instincts after all they did kept me above ground. And the experiences of course leaving me pretty independent and stubborn.
So, what I’m hoping to relay in this lil bio of mine are some clues into how (granted that is if any one of you REALLY means what you say and would like to get to know me better, hang out, whatever) you might win my attention and sweep me away J
Here are some clues…
I am spinning my tails trying to build an empire.
I do not stop this process for anything that does not compliment my goals.
I can not relate to drones. I have a thirst for more, and the smarts and drive to make it happen. All I am lacking is a like minded partner who I can exchange energy with, bounce ideas off of, and hopefully see out this vision with hard work, dedication and determination.
Can you say “retiring and taking long adult vacations someday”?
So, there you have it. Like it, hate it, fear it, judge it, I couldn’t give a fuck any less about what you do with it. But one thing you can bet on…it’s 100% true, and no shame in my world. Every bit of who I am today stems from every bit of ugly I have endured and I love every bit of who I am today so it was all well worth the hell.
Monday, November 10, 2008
More photos of Wind Chimes
I have some new designs up for sale of my beautiful hard drive wind chimes.
I'm trying to included a short video clip as well.
Please email for any info. Thanks
Monday, October 27, 2008
Wow! Someone just complimented my blog :)
Today has been really good over all.
Aside from the nice compliment, I have made some great contacts and hopefully have found a great company to work with in my fetish goals. :)
There really is absolutely no reason why I should not be a HUGE success in my life.
I've lived in the poor class that struggles and in constant misery and despair...I've visited the middle class who are doing just above average and are happy there....But I KNOW I am smart enough, creative enough, driven enough...to live amongst the well off but I will be lucky enough to have had worked HARD to get there and will enjoy it, appreciate it, and deserve every thing I get. :)
As bad as it sounds, until I was in mid 30's my only goal was to be dead by the age of 35.
Needless to say I was a bit screwed up. But when I reached that mark, and believe me it was not for lack of real attempts...I was still alive. something kinda like that portrait of Jesus standing looking up to the sky and the clouds are parted with blinding rays of sun beaming through...something similar happened to me. It's like I was given a huge gift for managing to get to this fork and having fought so hard to get there. I was given...Me.
All of the sudden I felt things I had never ever felt before in my life.
These feelings included self worth, self acceptance, compassion, will to live and a SUPER high desire to be GREAT from that point on.
And while my growth has been very slow, I have gained a HUGE amount of footage and make breakthroughs that have left those who knew me before speechless in awe.
And I have promised myself to be true to myself and to do whatever it takes to prove primarily to myself, that there is nothing that I can not do if I put my mind to it.
The story of "Homeless to Harvard" was such an inspiration to me. I plan on making just as much of an impact and sharing my story with others who maybe can be inspired by it.
Thank you nakedlunchagain for the dose of confidence!
Hugs to all and remember play safe and play longer!
Miss Char
Aside from the nice compliment, I have made some great contacts and hopefully have found a great company to work with in my fetish goals. :)
There really is absolutely no reason why I should not be a HUGE success in my life.
I've lived in the poor class that struggles and in constant misery and despair...I've visited the middle class who are doing just above average and are happy there....But I KNOW I am smart enough, creative enough, driven enough...to live amongst the well off but I will be lucky enough to have had worked HARD to get there and will enjoy it, appreciate it, and deserve every thing I get. :)
As bad as it sounds, until I was in mid 30's my only goal was to be dead by the age of 35.
Needless to say I was a bit screwed up. But when I reached that mark, and believe me it was not for lack of real attempts...I was still alive. something kinda like that portrait of Jesus standing looking up to the sky and the clouds are parted with blinding rays of sun beaming through...something similar happened to me. It's like I was given a huge gift for managing to get to this fork and having fought so hard to get there. I was given...Me.
All of the sudden I felt things I had never ever felt before in my life.
These feelings included self worth, self acceptance, compassion, will to live and a SUPER high desire to be GREAT from that point on.
And while my growth has been very slow, I have gained a HUGE amount of footage and make breakthroughs that have left those who knew me before speechless in awe.
And I have promised myself to be true to myself and to do whatever it takes to prove primarily to myself, that there is nothing that I can not do if I put my mind to it.
The story of "Homeless to Harvard" was such an inspiration to me. I plan on making just as much of an impact and sharing my story with others who maybe can be inspired by it.
Thank you nakedlunchagain for the dose of confidence!
Hugs to all and remember play safe and play longer!
Miss Char
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Super novel techie gift for the holidays
A truly novel gift for the techie in your life this holiday season.
I make these beautiful wind chimes out of the insides of old computer hard drives.
They are awesome sounding and as they age and weather the sounds change ever so slightly but never stop sounding very beautiful and relaxing. The ironic part of this is the fact that hard drives are and always have been an item that causes stress to us techies, and so rather than fill up our landfills with the hundreds that I've saved..I decided to make something of sheer beauty and soothing relaxing sounding.
I never make 2 alike so if you order one you can have the satisfaction of knowing it will be a one of a kind, hand crafted, Eco friendly piece all of your own.
For more info on ordering, please send an email to char@ecoprogressivenuts.com
Thanks
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Bucket List of a Sensual Domme Goddess
Everyone has a bucket list right? A list of things they want to accomplish before the clock runs out?
Well I want to share mine to both get feedback and maybe find key players in some of the things listed.
So if you have any comments, suggestions, input of any kind feel free to to speak up. However if your input is just flamatory, do not expect recognition.. to the trash you go. Although constructive criticism is embraced and welcome.
Well I want to share mine to both get feedback and maybe find key players in some of the things listed.
So if you have any comments, suggestions, input of any kind feel free to to speak up. However if your input is just flamatory, do not expect recognition.. to the trash you go. Although constructive criticism is embraced and welcome.
- To be a HUGE success in any one or many of my biggest dreams of entrepreneurial business ideas.
With this goal I will not only be proving to myself but proving to a large amount of disbelievers that no matter where you are, where you come from, how much or how little you have, whether or not you have a strong book education, or how many people are trying to prevent you from doing ANYTHING in the world you want to, that you can in fact achieve great things for yourself if you just put your mind to it, have no limits in how hard you will work towards it and NEVER give up. Keep your eyes open for my success story on the Oprah show. I WILL be there someday.
- My autobiography
Everyone who hears the history of my life insists that I need to write a book. I agree. However that book will need an equally "Dramatic" happy ending as it has the first half of "dramatic" sorrow. So that remains on the back burner and as I accomplish the other entries I will build that ending. Ideally if you are a over 6 ft, over 35 yrs of age male with a strong female side, down to earth, love strong woman, and have aspirations in life...you could very well help me with my happy ending.
- To make a historically recognized difference in the future of human sexuality
I remember back when I was the prude from hell. What a F^&** up mental prison that was. But thankfully through the pressure of my sexual peek, the discovery of female ejaculation, a break up with someone I cherished more than life and the loss of my first real accomplished job, I was not only able to make through an otherwise destined demise, I rose above, found what I'd been seeking so desperately through drugs, men, children (8), and lots of other destructive habits and came to a wonderful place of self acceptance, teach ability , openness, self exploration and the teaching and helping others to explore as well and about how much happiness can be gained from achieving a state of "sexually centered-ness". But my goal is to make landmark history in changing the way the world See's their sexual self. :) I feel if there was more being done to help young women to grow up with a true sense of healthy self...the difference it would make in this world would be immense. Men will follow suit, they are easy. :) I am currently working in this arena in the form providing sensual (not heavy S&M) Pro Domme services such as sissification/training, cross dressing, light bondage, fetish play, role play, fantasy. I love helping people through their sexual hang ups, I feel bad for those who will simply refuse to break free from the bondage of religious and social pressure.
- To create and open a unique therapeutic water spa
My vision is one that combines the awesome features of "Splash spa" (now closed down but was in the west LA area) and the very beautiful "Puddingstone resort spas" like "by the hour, themed based" jacuzzi room rentals and the inclusion of some bed and breakfast, party and other features. Ideally it will include a water park as well for everyone to enjoy. I believe water is the single most effective and healthy form of relaxation. But I am bias. ;)
And I am sure there are more and I will update as I go. I look forward to your input, help, and all around feed back.
Till next...thanks for reading and have a kinky day.
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